It has been a moment. Busy, yes. We arrived home from the ocean just in time to start the school year, and a new work routine in a new world. Face masks and social distancing 4 year old’s takes a special human. We have found one in my child’s teacher. I have so much respect and warm wishes for all teachers. There was a flow and we trusted it all would come together. And it has. I hope it continues as such. We will navigate around debris when the time comes. I have started working a second job out of the house. I enjoy it. I can talk art and quantum physics (which we are not well learned) over Chinese with some pretty rockin ladies. We have added four new living-breathing-needing crustaceans to our home. “they are all girls,” said my son. The luxury tank has found a home on my kitchen table. Not a first choice, but warm and active enough I can keep up with their needs. I have spent more money on them than I have on clothes for myself this year. Just placed an ETSY order for 10 new outfits for them to try. One of the four girls, Ms. Pinch, makes an appearance each night. As for the others, they remain true to their Hermit calling. The world is chaos. The update of my iPhone this week has made it even creepier than before. It lights up just like it’s remote control friend when you walk too close. All of our Alexia’s, Siri’s, Cortana’s aren’t offering that 90’s throwback jam for free. They have an unseen price, and are in close contact with the lawnmower man. And the creepy clown references. I can think of two clown cars full of candidates for that one. Pulling up and spilling the scariest of grease paint make-ups and fake limbs. What do they want? Popcorn? They all can merge into one shadowy Voltron VW bugs after popcorn is served and exit the kitchen. Wizard of OZ, you go too. Godspeed! I wish you all a safe journey. I have had an interesting cast of characters this lifetime. The COVID numbers are rising. The election is soon. The opinions are hot, biting and quick. Everyone has a right to one, and a right to not like yours. And… the astrology of the next few years is showing more high tension times are ahead. I feel confused, mislead and misinformed. A jumble of information to build your very own LEGO set complete with the mini figure collection blind bags and an ulta-rare golden figure. Oh and slime. But this blog is about rising from this chaos. Turning a blind eye and being AWARE but choosing another path are not the same.
I grew up in a slower time. I came of age, went to school, moved out. We had the ability to disappear. We could walk into the woods on a summer morning and come running home to a dinner bell. My father installed one on the deck of our home. We could hear it echo through the valleys behind the house. My friends and I would go on day long drives. Find new roads, towns, smoke, take photos on an old polaroid camera, or wait for film to develop. We would fill up the tank with 10$ and vanish. We shared everything. Bites of food, Drinks, cigarettes, couches, books, money. I don’t remember ever having the fear of missing anything (except maybe the dinner bell.) Our photos are in albums, shoe boxes. Pulled out for reference or special occasions. Payphones, watches, cassette tapes, video rentals, no coin shortage, no sanitizer, no directions, no cell phones.
So looking back and looking forward… My new focus is this present. I am taking a new year long course. It’s focus is ancient teachings, but also to be present. Today. As I go through the cycles of the year, the seasons, I want to slow down. I want to ease. Our teacher visualized a flow of a river when designing the program. I was sold. I want to enjoy the flow of perceived time. I want to embrace every part while I can. While it is here. My meals, my family, my pets. The food we eat each night to highlight the ingredients available. I want to love the work I do, find peace in the movements of tasks. To create. I have been uncomfortable for most of my life. To move out of my comfort zone is a foreign concept. I leapt into this new coursework clumsily and anxiously. I knew immediately that this was what I was looking for. I hope to FIND my comfort zone. To shed all that old skin. I want to experience the wisdom of other woman on the journey. I hope to embrace all of the amazing things I take for granted everyday that pass. Leave all of the chaos below. And yes, I will use my computer. I will watch bad tv. I will follow my YouTube readers. I will post my daily tarot readings on InstaG story, and sometimes even Facebook photos. I will social distance when appropriate. I will remain AWARE but not immersed. To embrace this world fully is to embrace what is available for your greater personal experiences and growth. Last night the wind whipped and whined outside. The last of the leaves blew from my large Maple. I could hear the old house creak and windows rattle with the force. It was my visit from Cailleach, she was right on time.